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Jun. 4th, 2007 | 11:33 pm
mood: cynicalcynical

People who come here looking for info about me:

Let me just say that there is much of the story that kat15lee has left out.

The real issue that this stemmed from is that she became self-righteous about her Christian beliefs with me; and despite my having asked her not to do this kind of thing several times in the past, I'd had enough of it and decided that I didn't want to continue with the "friendship". You see, I really don't like self-righteous religious people. Well, clearly this infuriated her and she decided to retaliate by making me look like some big asshole.

Sure it might seem suspicious that someone you've talked to online for 7 or 8 months doesn't want to give you a picture or tell you their name or their address and phone number. But let me tell you - I have very good reason. She told me very early on that is a "stalker". She would talk to me about the other people she was stalking. She would gossip about people. She made me privy to information that other people shared with her - including wanting to share private chats and posts (which I told her was not her right to share). She said to me more than once "I hate people". She gave me several indications that I should be judicious about what I told her. From her own behavior, I believed she was not to be trusted. Would you share your address, phone number, or even a picture of yourself if you felt that person might abuse it or use it against you? Regardless, I have every right to use discretion as to who knows what about me on the internet. Period.

What she didn't tell you is that I'm a pretty damn nice guy and am really good to my friends. I doubt she would share with you the kind of support I've given her about her ex-boyfriend, her job (or lack thereof), her lack of friends, her loneliness, even her lack of faith in her own God. No, of course not. That might make her whole vendetta against me lose its weight.

If you chose to believe her, there's nothing I can do. Just be warned that she knows she is sinking in her drama and she is trying to pull as many down with her as possible.

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May. 30th, 2007 | 12:32 am
mood: annoyedannoyed

Is this because of Saturn in my 11th house?

I have had three people try to apologize for something shitty they did to me in the past year and a half(?) and seemingly have absolutely no idea how to do so.

This is not how you do it:

"I apologize...but you made me do it" or
"I'm really sorry I did that...but you deserve it" or, my favorite
"I'm sorry...but, you know, I'm right and you are being dumb"

(None of these are verbatim, but that's the gist of it.)

When you try to explain to them how they have just negated everything they "apologized" for, they just don't get it. "Sorry" means nothing if you continue to hurt someone. If you feel out of control of your behavior - and I believe that this is, to a certain extent, possible - then please understand that within yourself; show me you're using your damn mind and reflecting on the situation. I can't help you otherwise. I can't have compassion for people who have no sense of right or wrong in this area and for whom an apology is instinct and not a conscious act. Apologies aren't about looking good or saving face.

There is a sincere apology and there is one that is all show. Believe me - I know the fucking difference.

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May. 29th, 2007 | 01:04 am
mood: angryangry

I just had an ugly conversation with someone.

This person and I have chatted many times over the past several months. Our relationship is purely online. We usually get along, but on occasion we butt heads - usually when this person says things which I find judgmental and insensitive.

Tonight was for me the straw that broke the camel's back.

This person is Christian. While I have nothing against Christians in general, I do find that more often than not that I don't get along with them. This is because they tend to fall into self-righteousness. I have a very strong belief in "you practice your religion and I practice mine". Still, I have been supportive of their beliefs - out of respect.

Well, this person has, over the course of our "friendship" criticized their perception of my lack of "relationship with God". I'm quite sure this is because I am not Christian; and despite that I believe I am more spiritually sound than this person, they become condescending and question my "relationship with God". I have asked this person not to do this because I find it disrespectful of my beliefs. They continued to do it.

I have enjoyed talking with this person. They are friendly, curious, inquisitive, fun, have a good sense of humor, and are generally supportive. However, they also tend to be judgmental, critical, negative, and gossipy. I have tried to be a good friend and encourage them to be less negative and judgmental and more loving and compassionate. Since many people are negative and judgmental, it's no "deal breaker"; however, tonight I decided I had enough.

This person revealed to me that they think bisexuality is "wrong". When I asked for reasons why I was given the equivalent to regurgitated, fundamentalist nonsense-logic (e.g. gay marriage ends in 100% divorce; gays have a higher suicide rate). I was then told that they didn't "approve" of my romantic relationship - it is "odd", "weird" and "psychologically damaging" (yes, it's challenging, but this person is hardly qualified to judge the us or our nearly 20 year history) - they didn't approve of my spiritual beliefs, and they believed I was making some "mistakes" with my life - one of which is my dating the man I love (probably in the very least because it's homosexual, considering their opinion on bisexuality).

They said they had told me all of this before. They are mistaken; they had not. On the contrary, they had given me many indications of supporting me - just like I have been of them. So, I feel betrayed and mislead.

Now, I have received an email which claims that I am treating their friendship "cheaply" by becoming offended by this behavior and being intolerant of it. They have told me before that I should not place "conditions" on our friendship (which they say is "very important" to them); that I should, presumably, put up with whatever nasty opinions they have about me, for what? Because it is their religion? Because they are being honest? Because that is what "friends" do? They take whatever shit you throw at them? I have plenty of friends. None of them worth having talk to me like this.

I have finally figured out that I am wasting my time with this person. If one fundamentally disapproves of WHO I AM, then we haven't much to say to one another, do we? And there is only so much emotional projection a man can take.

Why is this public, you ask? Because I have enough foresight to know that my side of the story might be of interest to some who might come looking here.

Please note that I have not disclosed the identity of the person.

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Apr. 18th, 2007 | 12:46 am
mood: tiredtired

We all have things about our friends that make us slightly envious. Not in a bad way, but in a 'Wow! I wish I had that person's hair/eyes/money/relationship/toenails/whatever.'

So tell me what about me makes you envy me. . . then post this in your LJ and see what makes me envious of you.

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Apr. 7th, 2007 | 03:07 am
mood: tiredtired

"Love is friendship set on fire."

- Jeremy Taylor

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Mar. 18th, 2007 | 10:37 pm
mood: pleasedpleased

A friend showed me this from a website which was discussing how to date a Scorpio (I didn't ask her why she was reading such a page). This was a comment left:

"When a Scorpio man loves you - It took months of emotional rollercoaster rides, all kinds of games and tests, but my Scorpio sweetie finally decided to give me his heart. In the process, I had to utilize all the patience, understanding, sensitivity, kindness and honesty that I had in me. It was worth every second. Note: He is not for every woman. He is a typical Scorpio, therefore, was quite secretive, mysterious, moody, hot and cold, quiet, sarcastic, and jealous. He could cut you with a few words. In the end, I don't know how I ever lived without him. A Scorpio man will not trust easily and quickly. It will take much time. He needs to be certain of many things before he can declare his feelings for you. When a Scorpio man is able to do that, then you have earned more than you ever thought possible. Try to understand him without critical judgment and over analyzing. He needs to be understood and accepted for exactly who he is and how he is. Here is where you must also be a strong individual with plenty of confidence. It is the only way to handle him.

Lots of affection and attention does wonders because he craves for a caring and loving soul to be there for him. Never pressure him to open up because with time and trust, he will do it on his own - little by little. His feelings and thoughts are deep and he is in control of how and when he reveals himself. It's good if you have your own friends, interests and hobbies because he needs his space and time alone as well. He wants a woman that has her own life too and doesn't sit around waiting for his call. He appreciates a woman that is reliable, honest (very important) straightforward, gets to the point, loyal, faithful, understanding, forgiving, tender (because he really is a sensitive soul) and smart.

If you're a woman that enjoys your femininity, you're self-confident, fun, humorous, sweet (but can get a bit feisty and stand up for yourself when necessary), and have a hot sex drive, then you are going to definitely win a Scorpio man's heart. What do you get in return? The best lover you ever had in your life. He is sugary sweet, gentle, protective, caring, exciting, adventurous, challenging and would do anything for you. If you're upset or unhappy about something, he'll do whatever it takes to make you feel better. His incredible strength and common sense will be a huge benefit to you in time of need.

He is an intelligent man and can help you solve whatever issue that burdens you. He can make you feel like a real woman and love it. Surrender to a Scorpio man and you will never want anyone else. If you have the stamina to match his, it will drive him over the edge! Scorpio man, like any other man is looking for the right lover to share his life with.He is very loyal once he decides to make someone his. He will give you more love than you ever wanted. He makes you feel special and the only one in his world. You can't beat all that, can you? Yes, if you give him reason to be jealous, the little green monster can come out, but if you know how to talk to him, you can reassure him of your love. Remember, his nature is sensitive.

Usually, people of this nature are very giving, kind and compassionate when they feel secure with you. Of course, other aspects in a person's charts do influence things a bit, but in general, I would have to say that they are worth the risk."

The only part I would correct is the assumption that the Scorpio male is heterosexual (or anyone else, for that matter). Otherwise - thank you, anonymous internet writer, for not saying we are evil bastards who should die slow, painful deaths because you didn't know what you were doing when you got involved with us in the first place. We are special creatures and can give you more than you could ever dream of if you treat us right.

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Mar. 17th, 2007 | 11:31 am
mood: jubilantjovial

Happy muthafuckin' Irish day!

*raises glass*


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Feb. 24th, 2007 | 03:52 am
mood: flirtyflirty

Classic leading man and Sexual Hell testsCollapse )

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Feb. 17th, 2007 | 04:25 am
mood: drunkdrunk

You scored as Old School Punk. Old School Punk as a genre formed simultaneously on both sides of the pond with Detroit and New York giving birth to bands like The Stooges, Ramones, and the MC5 while, on the British side punk bands popped up with such regularity and mayfly-esque lifespans that there doesn't exist a definitive audio record of most of them. Although some, such as the Sex Pistols, have made such an impression on popular culture that there have been movies about them.


Old School Punk


Mope Rocker


Bondage Freak






New School Punk


Elder Goth


Synthpop Devoteé


Neo Goth


Emo Kid


Which musical counterculture do you fit in with?
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